MOWT is my analogous development of the equivalent of the USB drive being handed over in the movie “Lucy”. This whole software, and the way everything will be connected in cross-referenced tree format, feels very much like a way to replicate the actual brain process itself of a person, once all the things are connected together as logically as described in past notes. The extended memory capabilities and chronological accuracy, plus all the knowledge to be gained from aggregate data will be invaluable! 😄
Sometimes when you already know a bunch of shortcuts to make yourself feel “happier” and those don’t seem to work, you still have to force yourself using that same trickery that affects us psychologically enough to effect desired changes, particularly in undeterred focus, or determined and confident movement toward the specific outcome sought. The unfortunate frustration comes from the actual behind-the-scenes knowledge and confirmation that this type of trickery *does* work, but the length of how long this will continue to work as a self-determination technique is still unknown, so paradoxically it’s hard to say whether it’s possible much longer to do this “happiness extreme” overload and expect it to work anymore when you know it’s happening…
It’s a complex concept I’ve been attempting to summarize for a while, so it seems like I’m closer to explaining it, and also kinda how much it sucks … since technically soon I’ll be showing it in video.
If a person with something like synkinesis is really feeling their depressed version of their “zombie self”, another person with any empathy can totally see the difference in an easy before/after, kind of in the comedic way I described it previously (straight up Senor Cardgage and all), but weirdly obvious difference between “not using face” or even body and simply being able to “smile properly”, of all things. And if the “problem” all along was more complex than that to just include something also relatively simple like “hey, maybe correct the strange lopsided hard-to-describe-axis curvature in your stature/posture” and all life’s problems go away, but only when *both* perspectives are applied simultaneously…
It *does* matter to be able to *show* happiness in your face when you feel it, or else if you don’t know how, you don’t get the involuntary side effect of “feeling happier” (basic serotonin boost, but still extant nonetheless) simply *because* you’re smiling properly, until you literally are (again a strangely experiential thing, but one that could be potentially taught like in a speech class). Once you know how to be physically happy if you didn’t before, mindfully knowing the difference of how that feels versus when you “don’t” feel it, means you then know how to “act” happy efficiently, meaning eventually the literal realization that you are indeed “acting” happy if it stops working despite best resistances or intentions otherwise. Ah, tragic comedy, all the days… 😢🙃💖
Process for visible youthfulness: Resisting abnegation as a useless control mechanism, Recognizing your zombie self enough to see it when not looking at yourself in the mirror, Practice how to move your body away from its zombie version and maintaining that change in as many physical positions as possible — as a daily, ongoing, mindfully evolutionary practice. All of these things are made easier if you have the prerequisite of an imagination with which to use for an “image of self” technique that really just means to know what you’re body is doing without looking at it — in the same way a dancer or martial artist would practice specific movements and routines in such a way that they see their self eventually do it increasingly successfully and that itself becomes its own motivating factor — coupled with the sort of imagination capacity it takes to superimpose a person who has skills you would like to possess over your own self image. #MOWT, #Rawr 🐯 lol
“I feel this, truly proclaimed will help the curbing of this tendency
I know this sharing of shame will ensure that I won’t forget myself so easily”
This Is Devotion
…to my daughters, to my self,
and to anyone my discoveries can help.
This was 11 live tracks, and not a single scratch track! And the video is silly too, lol… Sorry about the missed notes…
What It Means When a Narcissist Says “I Love You”
Only a therapist, with experience in this, stands a chance, and even then, only if I choose to really, really, really let him/her! (That’s because I’d have to face my greatest fear that, not only am I not superior to everyone and thus not entitled to make and break rules as I please, but I’d also have to own — that my own actions, thoughts and beliefs about myself and others — are THE main cause of the suffering in my life … and changing them, THE solution. I could not would not ever want to do this for the sole reason that, from my worldview, only the feeble-minded and weak do such things!)